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Getting Sobriety – Through it or around it, still means IT is happening.
In sobriety, there’s this illusion that if you do things right—get a sponsor, work your steps, train hard, meditate, take the right supplements—you can somehow bypass the hardest parts. That you can build a clean, efficient route around the messiness and get to clarity without having to sit in the mud. But here’s the truth…
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Moab Trail 1/2 Marathon – USATF National Championship (November 2025)
One mantra I live by: I ain’t ducking no smoke. About three weeks before the race, a friend in Utah mentioned there was a USATF National Championship happening down in Moab. I had half-heartedly told myself after Run Rabbit that my 2025 race season was over—but Moab was less than a four-hour drive, and exceptions,…
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Getting Sobriety – Dry Drunk ?
Am I a dry drunk? That question comes around more often than I’d like to admit—usually somewhere between a long run and a long stare at the wall after. I’ve done the AA thing. Worked the steps. Gave it up to my Higher Power, more times than I can count. And yet, here I am,…
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Run Rabbit Run 50 Mile (September 2025)
Why Does Anyone Do These Things? Why does anyone do these things? Better question: why do I do them? On a dreary Friday in Utah, I took a full unpaid day off work—a strong start—to load my car with what could best be described as a chaotic buffet of endurance athlete nonsense: bags of “nutrition”…
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Getting Sobriety – Quiet Work
There’s a part of sobriety that no one really talks about—when it stops feeling like a fire and starts feeling like a routine. No rock bottom. No big emotional breakthroughs. No cravings lurking around every corner. Just quiet, consistent living. You wake up. You drink coffee. You move through your day. You go to bed…
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Tushar Mountain Marathon (July 2025)
When I returned to what I’d consider a more focused training block, it all came naturally. I wasn’t putting up wild numbers or chasing PRs—I was just showing up every day with intention and staying within myself. Easy runs were truly easy. Workouts were sharp and purposeful. No overreaching, no ego. Just stacking bricks, day…
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Getting Sobriety – Ebb and Flow
This past season of life has been nothing short of overwhelming—moving states, renegotiating work, diving into another semester of a doctoral program. The structure I once leaned on—training, routines, quiet moments of control—was suddenly replaced with uncertainty, transition, and a long list of to-dos. And in the midst of that, I found myself returning to…
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Suarez Gran Fondo Picolo & Twisted Fork 30 K (June 2025)
Amidst the chaos of moving, renegotiating employment, and beginning another semester of my doctorate program, I managed to sneak in two races—one on the bike, and another shorter trail race. They were my first opportunities to compete in Utah, something I had been looking forward to. But if I’m being honest, both efforts were fairly…
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Getting Sobriety – I’ll Die before I quit
Lately, I’ve been hearing a phrase echoing more and more across the endurance world: “I’ll die before I quit.” It’s worn like a badge of honor—a declaration of toughness, grit, and absolute commitment. When I first started taking running seriously, I adopted this mindset without question. I wanted to take myself to the absolute edge—break…
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Canyons 25 K (April 2025)
The training block hadn’t gone to plan—none of it had. When I signed up for the 50K edition of this race back in February, I had high hopes: a sub-3:45 finish and peak fitness by race day. Canyons 50K was supposed to be my A race of the year. But things unraveled. Fires in L.A.…
Bonk and Rally 