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Getting Sobriety – I’ll Die before I quit
Lately, I’ve been hearing a phrase echoing more and more across the endurance world: “I’ll die before I quit.” It’s worn like a badge of honor—a declaration of toughness, grit, and absolute commitment. When I first started taking running seriously, I adopted this mindset without question. I wanted to take myself to the absolute edge—break…
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Canyons 25 K (April 2025)
The training block hadn’t gone to plan—none of it had. When I signed up for the 50K edition of this race back in February, I had high hopes: a sub-3:45 finish and peak fitness by race day. Canyons 50K was supposed to be my A race of the year. But things unraveled. Fires in L.A.…
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Getting Sobriety – The Nessecary Evil Called Time
There’s a curious phenomenon that occurs deep into an endurance run. Time begins to warp. Minutes stretch like taffy, yet hours somehow compress into moments of suspended reality. Your watch continues its mechanical march, but your experience dissolves into something more fluid—something that challenges our conventional understanding of time. This same phenomenon appears in recovery.…
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Single Track Stampede 10 K & Knickerbocker 1/2 Marathon (March 2025)
It seems like a rite of passage in the endurance world, and it finally happened to me in March. Fatigue. After a solid stretch of performance, time and erosion came knocking at my door. I believe it began after the ABC 50-miler, where I failed to properly recover before jumping back into training. In those…
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Getting Sobriety – Confidence vs. Cocky
The Endless Humbling: A Runner’s Dance with Sobriety and the Dunning-Kruger Effect You know that moment when you first complete a 5K and suddenly feel like you’re practically Olympic material? Or that first month of sobriety when you think you’ve got it all figured out? That’s the Dunning-Kruger Effect in action – that cognitive bias…
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Black Canyons 50k (February 2025)
Sodium and anxiety: my twin nemeses in ultrarunning. No matter how much salt I pour into my system, it never seems enough. And the anxiety? It’s a constant companion, gnawing at my edges whether I’m toeing the line at a local group run or standing among elite athletes at a major ultra. I arrived at…
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Getting Sobriety – Think Think Think
In both running and sobriety, I wage a constant battle with an internal force – a siren song that beckons me toward impulsive decisions. This voice whispers seductively of shortcuts, of pushing beyond reasonable limits, of abandoning carefully laid plans in favor of momentary satisfaction. It’s the same voice that once urged me to drink…
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Pemberton Trail Race 25K (January 2025)
Learning to push in running is like conducting an orchestra without a score Not that I know a lick about that. Just a hunch. You must feel the crescendos and diminuendos in your bones, know exactly when to surge and when to hold back. It’s an art I’m still grasping. The raw “empty the tank”…
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Getting Sobriety – Inventories
The architecture of sustained sobriety exists not in the realm of static achievement but in the dynamic space of perpetual becoming. At its core, this journey manifests through the rigorous practice of inventory-taking—not merely as a documentary exercise, but as a phenomenological investigation into the nature of conscious experience. This practice transcends simple self-reflection, operating…
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ABC 50 Miler (December 2024)
The mention of this 50-mile beast first reached me in the sweltering summer of 2024. What began as a throwaway comment in a casual conversation stuck with me. The race wasn’t just another ultra on the calendar—it was a missing puzzle piece I hadn’t known I needed, perfectly positioned between the Kodiak 100K and the…
Bonk and Rally 