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Getting Sobriety – The Nessecary Evil Called Time
There’s a curious phenomenon that occurs deep into an endurance run. Time begins to warp. Minutes stretch like taffy, yet hours somehow compress into moments of suspended reality. Your watch continues its mechanical march, but your experience dissolves into something more fluid—something that challenges our conventional understanding of time. This same phenomenon appears in recovery.…
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Single Track Stampede 10 K & Knickerbocker 1/2 Marathon (March 2025)
It seems like a rite of passage in the endurance world, and it finally happened to me in March. Fatigue. After a solid stretch of performance, time and erosion came knocking at my door. I believe it began after the ABC 50-miler, where I failed to properly recover before jumping back into training. In those…
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Getting Sobriety – Confidence vs. Cocky
The Endless Humbling: A Runner’s Dance with Sobriety and the Dunning-Kruger Effect You know that moment when you first complete a 5K and suddenly feel like you’re practically Olympic material? Or that first month of sobriety when you think you’ve got it all figured out? That’s the Dunning-Kruger Effect in action – that cognitive bias…
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Black Canyons 50k (February 2025)
Sodium and anxiety: my twin nemeses in ultrarunning. No matter how much salt I pour into my system, it never seems enough. And the anxiety? It’s a constant companion, gnawing at my edges whether I’m toeing the line at a local group run or standing among elite athletes at a major ultra. I arrived at…
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Getting Sobriety – Think Think Think
In both running and sobriety, I wage a constant battle with an internal force – a siren song that beckons me toward impulsive decisions. This voice whispers seductively of shortcuts, of pushing beyond reasonable limits, of abandoning carefully laid plans in favor of momentary satisfaction. It’s the same voice that once urged me to drink…
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Pemberton Trail Race 25K (January 2025)
Learning to push in running is like conducting an orchestra without a score Not that I know a lick about that. Just a hunch. You must feel the crescendos and diminuendos in your bones, know exactly when to surge and when to hold back. It’s an art I’m still grasping. The raw “empty the tank”…
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Getting Sobriety – Inventories
The architecture of sustained sobriety exists not in the realm of static achievement but in the dynamic space of perpetual becoming. At its core, this journey manifests through the rigorous practice of inventory-taking—not merely as a documentary exercise, but as a phenomenological investigation into the nature of conscious experience. This practice transcends simple self-reflection, operating…
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ABC 50 Miler (December 2024)
The mention of this 50-mile beast first reached me in the sweltering summer of 2024. What began as a throwaway comment in a casual conversation stuck with me. The race wasn’t just another ultra on the calendar—it was a missing puzzle piece I hadn’t known I needed, perfectly positioned between the Kodiak 100K and the…
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Getting Sobriety – False Finish Line
As I’ve progressed in both sobriety and ultrarunning, I’ve noticed an interesting parallel – both have a way of exposing comfortable lies we tell ourselves. Like my favorite one about being “process-oriented.” You know, that enlightened athlete mindset where the journey matters more than the destination? Turns out, sobriety has a way of stress-testing these…
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Kodiak 100K (October 2024)
Signing up for Kodiak again came with a new kind of nervousness. Unlike previous races, I had set a more specific goal and developed a strategy involving splits. Scary. The shift from just showing up to actually preparing and executing felt out of reach. The race was not a garuntee from the start. A large…
Bonk and Rally 